Chocolate

The spectacle of lights from a window comes in to my eyes with tear. I was almost sleeping but my eyes are slightly open. First the light started to roll and roll. Then, they get more colors like yellow, orange, red and light blue. More and more, they got clear visions. So, I try to look into the every single light. Then, something miracle had started. I saw a monster moving around my world. First, I was flighten, but then, it turned to a flower. Very colorful flower and sky fell down into my sight. Then, I saw the yellow submarine moving with all the legends. I had a very clear mind but I couldn't move at all. I tried to move my legs then all the people were getting away. So, I tried to concentrate on all the image in my head. Suddenly, a fridge next my bed started to make noise. "Boom boom" I penetrate my back like wave. So, I tried to listen to it carefully then I could hear my heart beating. "Dun dun" I could see all the sound in my eyes. Few seconds of watching the sound, a wave came into my eyes. Five of the waves, moving like aurora from the night sky. I found out they were the fingers of my girlfriend touching my back. I could sence everything with visions. After all, I felt that I used my brain so much. I was so exhausted. Hence, it was the most amazing and beautiful experience in my life.

Suffer

What is suffering you? That is the question suffers me. Everyday, I spend time with nothing. I just want to do but becoming lazy. Tell me something about you. The answer is almost nothing. Am I important to you? No way! Life is just a coming and going, day by day. Sometimes, I feel that the day has blown away like a leaf. Maybe not, even a leaf has the time of little seedling, beautiful green grown and exisotic autumn color; they are beautifully living and make a lot of people be happy, impressed and encouraged. Can I just fun? No way!! I care that parents hope, friends rumar and even the others eyes. I think most of us have to according to some peoples mind or some sort of oppinions to line up to be a civilarised person. Or to be admired maybe even to be a friend. Then we all are in a sort of competition that can't be said competition. Thats suffers me now. Coz, I have nothing to be respected but full of shit.

Reason

Unlistenable screems inside from my degnity. Boreness against life without reasons. Invisible enemy tears my lung. Smell of cigarette and spirits are twine around my body that can't be erased. I fight with the lazyness and lose day to day. Moonlight in the midnight would be the same like my footway. Mostly, I can not hear the voice of myself says get out here. Why the time has changing? I just want to be free from it. Why the life is so important? The TV talks about suicidal young boy. Information makes my nerve dull. Some say everything is going to be alright. It is just a easy way to say but nothing is going to be right at all. From today, what will change in my world? President, law or maybe human right... Fuck them!! I don't care. My friends, brothers or family... Yeah, for all of you... No, because of all of you, I have to try harder and harder to be admireble. And all I can say is that I want to be proud of all of you.

Monster

Every morning, i am scare...
What can it be??
In the edge of the dark, there is something laying next me.
Huh?? Is it looking at me??
It has two bloodstain eyes that come out from the dark.
Something like smoke moving around of it like circle.
I am on the bed.
I want to get up and run away from it.
But something from my body keeps me dull.
It will not go away from me either.
I try to reach my hand to my lighter.
The thing grab my arm and press against floor.
Shit, What is going on here.
Slowly, it is coming to my face.
The eyes are staring me like looking though my brain.
Holy S...
It comes in to my head, I can feel it, now it starts gives me awful pain in my haed, sore throut and freeze my body.

I woke up

What did I see??
I don't remember...

Oh yeah, I had big night again last night.
Its almost 3pm... I feel awful...

Well, what am I going to do today??
Nothing much, maybe drinking again...

Step up!!

I take a cigarette in my mouth, and pick up an old match.
Scratch by the side of box, but its get damp.
Once, twice I try. The deep sigh from my mouth fills with air.
Faint sound of leaf flow through my back.
A cat passes though in my sight.
I say "what brings you here"?
She comes to me yawn like a cat.
I stroke her back, she sounds throat like cat.
I try light on again. Psh! "Whew".
Definitely, I am wasting today.
I smoke deeply, head up and exhale to the cell.
The effects of cigarette go my brain numb.
The smoke flows all over the room.
I notice the shadow of the smoke in the sunlight.
I notice there is slight wind from gap of the window.
I try to close properly but it wouldn’t.
Then, I open up the window full.
A certain wind flow over the room’s dusty atmosphere that makes me fresh.
I see the blue sky.
A bird flies though and disappears from my sight.
I stretch my body like human.
Then, I deep breathe of fresh.
I step up forward for today.

Me

Me
I am eating yammy yammy leaf of a young plum tree on hill with beautiful view.
Suddenly, a first wind of spring blow me off the leaf.
My body fly off to road of human in vain.
It just a meter from my world (the leaf) to this world, but it seems to be busy.

A man walk almost step on me.
A car exhale horrible gas makes me distaste.
A glass scrach me a bit.
A spit of smoking woman colored like dung.

I just have to avoid them and keep going back to the leaf as I assume to do.
Fortunately, I just fall off by the side of the tree.
My foot goes one centimeter every second.
It seems to be a long trip from here to my home, but it seems to be right.

I see

Guys argue something on a road.
Girls goes shopping, exhaust money and dissatisfied.
Men run away from a cup.
Women had an accident colored all red.

I just think the world is so complicated that make us confused with too much.
Continuedly, strong wind of spring flow this world fresh.
My strenght try to hold with my long travel.
It becomes suffer from hungry, through this pain, but it will be my home.

After

I wonder why people are so...
I thought the world itself it is disgusting.
I feel difficult and complicated.
I want to know what for.

Follow my vision to the dazzling sky, there is beautiful sunset fills the sky as red as brilliant.
I am just so eased that I could survive from the journey.
The world is still beautiful.

Time

Why can a song be forever?
Why can a moment be forever?
Why can a picture be forever?
Why can a love be forever?
Why can a live forever?

Everything is going to end all time, like feeling bored or fade away.
Time is always passing as inevitable so as my consciousness.
All existance will be gone and all momery will be forget from this world.
Heartless and cold but one by one steady.
I just want to know the meaning of life.
I just want to sing the endless song.

Nonetheless, the world will flow.
Meaningless, I will fly away.

I will through this days without meaning and desire.
Time will kill me as same as everything else are.
Even if I through away everything, none of thing will not change.
Pointless and none but one would be one
.I just want to know who I am.
I just want to see what would it be.

The reason is that none of us can survive with everything.
We have to forget something for something else new or better.
Otherwise we will be so pathatic that make world worse and worse.
Just like war or revenge, and tragedy or hateness.
I just want to show life is beautiful.
I just want to feel ideal of world.