Short story part 7 "A man who saw the Utopia"

This guy was in so much desperate at the moment. He saw so many death in a war. Now, he just lost his mother because of sick. And, he lost his best friend in an accident. He gets anger more and more and he broke up his girl friend. He spent all his money for gamble. He was standing on a bridge at a night with full moon. He is suffering from so many coincidence of world. He wished that he will go to utopia after his death. Thinking compare to this desperate, an utopia is how wonderful. He will never suffer from anything. Falling to the ocean from the bridge, he wished that suffer never comes to him. It is not cold ocean but warm and soft island waiting for his death. He thought that " it is the utopia".
He was happy for a moment with juicy fruit. He was happy for a hour with alcohol. He was happy for a day with beautiful beach. He was happy for a week with a beautiful girl. He was happy for a mouth with friends without any trouble. He was happy with everything.
But, the utopia never full his heart with happiness for forever.
Now, he noticed that the real happiness is not like that. Happiness; the real utopia was in real world with suffer. He struggled to get back to reality. Then he met God. God told him. "You wished to come here, you are deserve to be here. Why do you want to get back there"? The man reply to God. "Because, I can not feel happy without sad". God said to him with anger. " If you wish so that would be true. But you have to suffer more than before, still you want to go back"? The man said "Yes". Then, he falled into the ocean.
Fortunately, he survive from the deep depth of the ocean. And, he has known happy in pain. He has known pleasure in sadness. He says that there is not exist happiness without knowing desperate. The real utopia is here with death and shit. He struggle for his dream and to be happy.
But, years later, he was standing on the same bridge again with suffering from everything. This time, he will not survive.